This episode was recorded on a whim right after my dog Vegas went missing!
I have 2 dogs but these are not my pets by choice. Vegas an Old English Bulldog and Caroline a Pit Bull. Tom and I agreed that we would not have any more pets so we can have more freedom, but he broke that promise. He disguised Vegas as a birthday gift for me, but I called bullshit! As much as I tried there was no way I could resist his cuteness and puppy kisses. Everyone loved him and he soon became very spoiled.
Then came Caroline, a broken discount puppy from my brother to Tom. Against every fiber in my being, I took this puppy home and somehow, I became her person.
Of course, I was the one stuck with the responsibility of taking care of these dogs before and after Tom died. I didn't want any more pets. It was like having children all over again and I didn't want the responsibility and commitment to took to be a pet owner.
With the thought of losing Vegas came a lot of guilt. Guilt because these were Tom’s dogs and ever since he died, I felt like I was stuck with them. As much as I loved them, I also resented them but after this night I am grateful for the gifts that were given to me. These dogs have sat at my side while I have cried and given me comfort. They have slept by my bedside when I’ve been sick. They have been someone to talk to on my loneliest days. They show me unconditional love I am always greeted with a wagging tail. What felt like more like an obligation has now been replaced with gratitude.
Tell me something you have been left the responsibility of caring for after your loved one passed away? Do you feel resentment like it’s a burden or do you feel grateful that you have it?
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